mmm....summer fresh!

i am changed.

This summer has been one of growth. Spiritually, emotionally, and mentally. i feel that i am really making steps in repairing and regrowing my relationship with G-d. i'm learning how to retrust myself, G-d, and people. It's hard and not fun, but it's definately a big step. another thing that i've done this summer is decide to petition for acceptance into the leadership class at Metro. doing so is to forfeit all chances of valedictorian. i am accepted, and not taking math this year. i am completely at peace with my decision although it is throwing my principal for a loop. and another thing. i am happy. i have discovered and completely tapped into the joy of the LORD. and truly the joy of the LORD has become my strength. i'm a new person. and the odd thing. since i've come home from my month of self-discovery. i've been told by multiple people that i look completely different. and you know what that is? Jesus. i love who i am in HIM, and i don't intend on changing that. i'm excited about life, and i feel free.

nothing gold can stay

Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay.

-robert frost

Harrison Peter

Okay, well the first one is really cute, but you gotta turn your head. aka my mother took it. haha. this is my darling beyond all else nephew, Harrison. Enjoy!

when the skies go grey with the coming dawn.

funny. i have a lot to say, but i don't have near enough the energy to say it.

i speak in french now almost the entire time i'm at work. makes it hard to speak anything but when i'm at home. hah.

i'm sleepy, goodnight

music. the flow of life.

music to me is like an extension of my heartbeat. i can't listen to a song if the pulse of it doesn't match up to my pulse and my ultimate being at the time i listen to it. my being's pulse fluctuates all the time and so does my music, but i just think it's interesting how the music we listen to can almost completely tell someone who we and what our feelings are at the moment.

first day 'o' work

well, first off my chaco tan is absolutely gorgeous.

okay well i think i'm going to love working at the oaks. everyone there is so nice and one of the girls speaks french! woo! and she is like really good friends with hannah and told me i'm like a little of her so she was going to adore me, oh yay. but one odd thing i noticed is that there are eleven of us lifeguards and every one is white and blonde. and every girl looks like she just walked out of a magazine, seriously there's no one bigger than a size 4. i'm pretty sure i broke that rule. hah. but yes, my feet are beautiful and i have a farmer's tan. : )

letcha know. sams sells my green tea again. all is right in the world! yay!

family ties.

so sitting beside my grandma ree today in the car i begain to think about the two sides of my family tree and how closely each sibling resembles one or the other. like how my the smith side is soft-spoken, passive, sweet, and gentle. now, this is the foil to my character, however, it describes my brother jon quite well. the other side, the odom/welch side are very out-spoken, random, different kinda people. i would definately classify myself there. i don't know i think it's really funny how completely different my parent's families are. and seeing the similarites and dissimiliarities of each that my siblings and i posess.