Whether it's from those rough ugly years as a fat adolescent, the brutal times when you thought your best friend hated you or hated herself (and she did, on both accounts), or when just plain awful was going down for a good long while.
Suck eras aren't surprising.
What I find surprising are the "triggers" you didn't know got left behind after you had been put together post-suck. They come up in the most random of times and places, no?
For instance, at one point, I lived with someone who had very strict ideas about what should be done with left over food. The chastisement I received when I failed to follow those guidelines was severe, but I soon fell into habit of doing things "correctly."
Later, when my housemate moved out and another moved in, I saw her throwing something out and started to have a panic attack. It was so strange. Because I had been conditioned to one way of life. Her violation of that rule unearthed serious anxiety in me as I recalled my chastisements of the past.
It happens.
The important step when your triggers get tripped (because they will) is how you respond.
Do you take the time to understand the root cause or to explain to whoever you are with why you flipped out so "unnecessarily" for the given situation?
Do you sort through what is legitimate and what is illegitimate?
And do you take the time to pray through those long-ago pains and find peace and security in Jesus?
It doesn't make you "unhealed" to still have your past in your blood, but it will if you let it have power over your present.
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