Friday, March 21, 2008
100 years
lately i've been getting bored. not just bored as in let's go to the park but just bored with life in itself. i feel as though i could be doing so much more with my life than what i am. but in order to achieve those things i require the preparation of the tediousness of my life as it is now. uh. why are some things just an endless cycle of emptiness? empty conversations, empty days, empty life. i feel like there is so much more to do than this, just studying and studying to become someone more. i want to be a brain surgeon, i want to travel, i want to have a family and fun. i want to have an endless source of long, interesting, intellectual conversations. it just feels like we spend our whole lives preparing for the future that when we get there, we'll wish we had done more in our past. i don't know. it just seems odd that we spend about a third of our hundred years wishing they go more quickly and the rest craving that which we have lost.
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J-me, you are wise, beyond your years. I know life seems empty, but find comfort in today's repetitions. Until a few weeks ago, I was bored with "normal" life. I've got nine weeks left, and then everything that I hold as comfortable disappears.
ReplyDeleteI was thinking earlier today. I was thinking about how it's time for me to grow up, and then I realized. I HAVE been growing up, I've spent my whole life growing up. I'm not done either. I've got the rest of my life to continue to grow up...
I guess my point in all of this rambling is...enjoy what you have now, look forward to the future, don't forget the past, and...we all still have a lot to learn before life is allowed to get truly boring.
have a great day!