to let it be.

i've started this post more than once now. it's funny that when you've got a lot to say, you can't put it into words, yet you can ramble endlessly on nothing. or when you need something the most it's usually the thing you push aside the hardest. for those of you that know for the past week and for the next two weeks, i am fasting. i fast to listen. listen to G-d, listen to others, listen to all the little things in life that get missed. and you know what i'm learning? i am not so good a listener. i'm learning hard and slowly through this, but unless it smacks me in the face or you're sitting there saying listen to me, then i'm out. i've also learned that i am very easily pursuaded to praise G-d when he's blessing me, but the second he let out for a blink of an eye, i was pissed. i soon realised i was being stupid and appologized for my fickle-ness, but i don't know. i...i have alot of thoughts right now. they aren't forming words, and i. i think it's best i leave them be.